Today I had a follow up meeting with the Plastic Surgeon and I almost left in tears. It was my first since August 27. My understanding was they would take photos and discuss surgery. The conversation was a little strained.
They took photos and then I waited for the doctor. He looked at the photos and talked about removing the hard tissue expanders and what he may have to do; a little bit of alloderm here, an little bit of fat or liposuction there to balance things up. He then started talking about size. I really don’t want to be bigger or smaller than I was, but answering his questions was difficult.
- They took out roughly 350ml of tissue from each.
- I only found that out after 400 had been added.
- I’ve heard you need a little extra because implants are a little wider and rounder.
- Also, my old boobs were sagging 50 year old boobs, now I have 2 hard lumps that stick out, no sag.
- I have no idea what 400ml implants will look like compared to saline filled tissue expanders.
When I told him I felt a little large, I can feel them under my armpits, I lose food down my huge cleavage. I wanted to know how different the implant would be, would they sag a little and seem smaller, or should I size down a little. If they will feel exactly like what I have, it’s too big. If they settle and don’t look like I’m wearing an over the top push up bra, I’d be okay.
The conversation went in different directions. He went back to the original images before surgery where he wrote C/D or larger. I said that was a misinterpretation of what I said. I had said I’m a C/D depending on the make of bra (usually C). I want to be the same, but if its not an accurate science, I’d prefer to err on larger (I don’t want to be smaller than I was). He said it was okay if I had changed my mind. I said I didn’t change my mind.
He asked if I was okay at 300 mls. I said I was more comfortable, so he suggested they take out 100 mls today and let me get used to that for 2 weeks. I was more comfortable because they didn’t stick out as much. Shit, 200 mls was comfortable too, but I don’t want to be that size.
So we got into a weird bargaining conversation with him suggesting I go down to 350 mls for a few weeks. I tried to ask again if a 400 ml implant would look similar to what I had. He then said that “some” people perceive the implant to be about 15% smaller. Okay, that works for me. End of story, I thought.
He then started talking about me needing to know what I want. He couldn’t help me if I didn’t know what I want. Apparently he didn’t understand that I’m having a problem understanding what I’m going to get. He suggested I go home and talk with my spouse or friend and decide. He then wants me to come back next week with my decision and they will reduce the tissue expander volume, or we’ll talk about moving forward with the surgery.
Crappola! I have an appointment on Monday and I’m no closer to planning for the exchange surgery.